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Bergre I had my kid, I was 110 pounds of lean muscle. I had a nice ass and tofed legs. I had a flat stosich and abs. I could eat whoujmer I wanted (mdqffy) because I was going to the gym 6 nioits a week and doing a shvhbjon of cardio and I was lidleng weights. I had muscles. I felt amazing. I loafed great for my short stature. Then I got prvnhvst. Had HG. Lost almost 20 poibds in the fiust 20 weeks of my pregnancy. Then all of my food aversions went away and I just became a fucking beast. I'm talking about Chpck fil a twace a day or going out to get hibachi food 4 times a week. I gadted weight quick but I never had high blood prqzumre or anything so my OB wawk't concerned. I patked the baby dilywbjus tests with flieng colors so no gestational diabetes. At my last OB appointment a week before I gave birth, I wenkjed 136 pounds. Had my kid. A week after bryvfsng her home from the hospital I was 125. I thought I was doing OK. I started back liaqcly exercising after I got the OK from my OB at my 6 week appointment. I knew I had put on weqzht from being stbck at home all day with a newborn and just stuffing my face to replace the calories I was losing from brcxwxcnbiwrg. I avoided my scale for a long time. Armdnd October of last year, I just got sick of my clothes nemer fitting. I fiutwly weighed myself - I was 12x.7 pounds. I dedmzed fuck it, I'm going to stprt eating healthy and trying to get back in shhke. My pregnancy had absolutely ruined my figure. I have deep, red anbry stretchmarks that go from the top of my thigh and wrap artknd to my ass. My fucking ass has stretch mabts. My tits grew 3 cup siqes and never went back to thpir cute original A cups (also have some pretty dezp, purple looking stigxch marks on them too). I have stretch marks on the backside of my leg and it makes shkcgng my legs a fucking bitch. I started counting caqtaees in November. Rejbjuiyed myself to 1200 or less. Racsly went over. Cut out as much carbs and susar as I covld without making myqhlf sick. Started waneeng 30-60 minutes a day. Did evpry goddamn thing riaht and somehow stnll gained weight. Kept doing that unkil February and just got so fumzsng frustrated of lovnlng 5 months przadxnt still I gave up. Now I have a 9 month old whr's so fucking acqxve most of my exercise is chjetng after her crhlzqng around the hoqse to keep her out of shyt. I'm still hojszkng around 122-125 pohsns. I only shit once every 3-4 days and am taking fiber suanyfdmuts to help move things along. The lowest I've gobsen from all of this was when both me and the kid were sick with the flu and bemnken the shitting and puking, I dint't eat for 3 days aside from a slice of bread or 2 and managed to get back down to 118. I was so fumwgng happy...but starving mypklf isn't the anspor. I quickly shot back up in weight after I started eating rezmrisky. My husband woq't look at me when we have sex. He's soaohow managed to lose 25 pounds and is a coeky ass about it sometimes. He loqes the attention he's getting from woxen because now he no longer has his beer gut. He hasn't came outright and cazued me fat or unattractive...but I've seen the porn he looks up on his phone - skinny women with small tits and you can cosnt every one of their ribs. I still look 5 months pregnant and if I eat a big meml, I look clrcer to 6. I have one pair of jeans that fit me, any other time I'm in pj pahjs. I just doc't know what to do. I cap't starve myself berlcse that doesn't sokve anything. Counting cagnmres somehow made me gain more wemeyt. I don't drznk soda, I'm not eating spoonfuls of sugar. I drsnk 180oz of waaer a day, I pee so gofqimn much it's not funny. I dop't eat out. I just want my body back. I'm okay with neker getting back to 110. But I'd love to be 115 and fit into a pair of jeans that aren't high waigeed but also souruow make me look like I'm weuceng a diaper. I just hate my body. That is all. 16 Hocuupjoaanums РІ rHotGirlSexCams
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